I thought it was one of the normal days at work. But that day had some twist. Truly unexpected experience is like a surprise slap that suddenly hits you when you are unready, huge surprise indeed.
One baby, not breathing normally, brought in by the parents. Just a couple of seconds and the code were called. He was successfully revived, but further procedures must be done. Everybody was concentrating and focusing to save him. Needle prick, suctioning, checking of heartbeat… invasive procedures… all of these things happened at the same time to be able to make him stable.
As I was securing one of the contraptions attached to him, he suddenly became agitated. The exact moment when I was about to touch the instrument I need, he also reached for my hand and grasp it tightly. The feeling of his grasp is like he is telling you he is scared… he is in excruciating pain… he needs help. I looked at him and there I saw the agony in his eyes. I saw the tears, and from that moment, everything stopped…
In that very moment, the clock stopped ticking; everybody and everything vanished inside the critical room. When I looked at him, I saw the tears of immense struggle, the tremendous pain he feels. That was few seconds when I suddenly hear the physician’s voice with urgency. I have to ignore the feeling, that unforgettable feeling that I myself cannot understand.
I continued working and I tried hard to concentrate on what I was doing. After few hours of battling with the time to stabilize him, we were able to shift him to the Intensive Care Unit. It was really tiresome but that magical moment I experienced when he held my hand was unexplainable. When I got home, I took time to sit and think about it, man, that little one is already experiencing a lot at his very young age. But look, here we are, capable of doing things we like, capable of living our life but still most of the time we have bunch of issues and lots of complaints and I am guilty for that.
Magical moment as I say because he was able to shoot me bull’s eye in the heart. All of a sudden it took me to a situation where in you must do even for the impossible. If you are in that situation, for sure, he will melt your heart. Totally helpless, he doesn’t have any choice but to endure the extreme pain because he is small, weak, ill. All he can do is cry; receive the pain, cry, flinch, and cry.
Each of us has our own battles, and not all of us are aware of what is happening to each other’s life. Whatever path or road your way is, make sure to expect the unexpected. For that baby who already experienced too much in his very young life, you must know how to thank God for the life’s chances given to you. Instead of complaining about shallow things, better look at the bright side of the world.